Leave it to me... :)

I write because I feel like it. Not because I actually ever want to write two blog posts in one day. So maybe I procrastinated this paper way too long. And maybe I don't really understand the prompt. I haven't finished the book and I haven't looked for scholarly sources. I haven't started a single thing about this paper and it's due tomorrow morning. I also know for a FACT that I will read this tomorrow or next week and think of myself as super cheesy but I really want to write. My day wasn't conventionally good but it was actually really great in more ways than one. Leave it to me to not write this essay at all but to instead choose a book irrelevant to the topic but completely AMAZING. I honestly can't put it down. So far in the 45 pages that I have read today, I have learned that everyone can come up with great ideas if we have the right attitude. For example, the most creative people are children. This is because they know no boundaries, no rules, no preconceived notions. They're naive and ignorant of what is around them. And they see the world for what it truly is. And they don't think about what they say and in their world, anything is possible. When they draw, they make the grass purple and the sun black. I'm not really advocating going around doing anything we want but I think we should never be completely serious. Serious is boring. I also learned that it's all about how we perceive ourselves. "They can do it all because they think they can" said Virgil. It's true. Why can't I be a lawyer and save the world??!? I CAN and I WILL if I want to.

Leave it to me to be sad for a couple hours and to think about the bad crap that happened. Maybe. But then coming home and being really happy and crying over the sad & the happy and not knowing quite sure which one is which. And being able to make the sad into the happy and fix EVERYTHING. And loving the way things are. Truly loving it.

I don't believe in fate. I don't simply because I feel it's a way for people to excuse the things that happen to them. And to make themselves feel better. "It didn't happen because it wasn't meant to happen." LIES. It's all lies. We construct our "fate". We choose our paths every day and we make important decisions. I know that I don't like making tough decisions because I fear the consequences. But see, I think too far ahead into the future. I should be more concerned for the NOW. Failure is a good thing. And an important part of growing up is taking that failure and turning it into success.

My life is like some crazy amazing crazy movie.