Aimlessly...

This week has been super random!

Cool new random things that happened:

-ditching every class to go to exhibit in LA
-taking random pics in front of graffitied van
-going up and down stairs humming the tune of Rocky
-sitting at sbux with my friend trying to guess what people did for a living/studied (we got designer, teacher, bio major, and a bunch of jobless losers)
-driving back in traffic, going in and out of the freeway, and banging our heads/singing at the top of our lungs to AC/DC like there was no tomorrow
-dog following me everywhere while walking
-catching up with a really old friend during work
-showing up to school the day when there is no school, getting the news from my co-worker
-fighting the payroll department to get my paycheck today, succeeding
-driving to Westminster and Fountain Valley by myself just to explore...
-finally finding a sbux, sitting there for an hour watching netflix
-jogging, almost puking, and then having a nice conversation with a man walking his chubby chihuahua, Mini
-going to Ralph's and wasting half an hour trying to decide what to buy, got french bread & alouette cheese, having cute cashier joke about the crap I was getting & me blushing :o hahaha

I need to do stuff like this every day!!! I already do it sometimes but I really need more randomness in my life :) I might go to six flags tomorrow and then black Friday? maybe.

Oh I forgot,  proposing to the cheese: "Alouette, what would I do without you? Please marry me"

Leave it to me... :)

I write because I feel like it. Not because I actually ever want to write two blog posts in one day. So maybe I procrastinated this paper way too long. And maybe I don't really understand the prompt. I haven't finished the book and I haven't looked for scholarly sources. I haven't started a single thing about this paper and it's due tomorrow morning. I also know for a FACT that I will read this tomorrow or next week and think of myself as super cheesy but I really want to write. My day wasn't conventionally good but it was actually really great in more ways than one. Leave it to me to not write this essay at all but to instead choose a book irrelevant to the topic but completely AMAZING. I honestly can't put it down. So far in the 45 pages that I have read today, I have learned that everyone can come up with great ideas if we have the right attitude. For example, the most creative people are children. This is because they know no boundaries, no rules, no preconceived notions. They're naive and ignorant of what is around them. And they see the world for what it truly is. And they don't think about what they say and in their world, anything is possible. When they draw, they make the grass purple and the sun black. I'm not really advocating going around doing anything we want but I think we should never be completely serious. Serious is boring. I also learned that it's all about how we perceive ourselves. "They can do it all because they think they can" said Virgil. It's true. Why can't I be a lawyer and save the world??!? I CAN and I WILL if I want to.

Leave it to me to be sad for a couple hours and to think about the bad crap that happened. Maybe. But then coming home and being really happy and crying over the sad & the happy and not knowing quite sure which one is which. And being able to make the sad into the happy and fix EVERYTHING. And loving the way things are. Truly loving it.

I don't believe in fate. I don't simply because I feel it's a way for people to excuse the things that happen to them. And to make themselves feel better. "It didn't happen because it wasn't meant to happen." LIES. It's all lies. We construct our "fate". We choose our paths every day and we make important decisions. I know that I don't like making tough decisions because I fear the consequences. But see, I think too far ahead into the future. I should be more concerned for the NOW. Failure is a good thing. And an important part of growing up is taking that failure and turning it into success.

My life is like some crazy amazing crazy movie.

Thursday blah.

"The one sure way to find out if you're going fast enough is to crash."

Today I "crashed". I just wished this had happened yesterday, it wouldn't have been so bad. I have this long paper due tomorrow and more than ever I wish I had started about a week before. Regrets regrets regrets. 2012 please be here already!!!!!!

Burning down the house!

I had a really strange dream yesterday night. So strange that I don't even feel comfortable talking about it publicly even though almost no one reads this...I don't usually like complaining but my life sucks right now. This past week has probably been one of the suckiest of my life. And I've had pretty bad ones. I'm trying to stay positive but it's tough. I've been ignoring people again. Work is good though! My job is fairly easy which is nice. Right at this moment I'm sitting in my car waiting for my 10pm-1am shift to start. I was trying to fall asleep in my car but my back seat is not very comfortable + I'm afraid I'll wake up late.

I'm registering for next semester already. I'm trying to pack all my classes into 2 days and it's kinda working. 6 classes as opposed to 4 will be hard but I think I can do it! I'll just need way more coffee. Today in ad class we watched a documentary called "art & copy" about the ad world. In my opinion it was kinda cheesy but it made some really good general points. Taking risks in life is so important. It's all about the decisions we make and facing them without fear. Sometimes I like to think that I'm quite fearless and that I love challenges but when it comes to thinking about my future I'm still really hesitant. Watching the movie I realized that the ad business requires a lot of commitment, I just want to make sure my heart is in this. Watching the video though I sort of realized that this profession describes exactly what I want to do for a living. I want to be an artist and I'm ambitious enough to believe that I can change the world through this medium. I have other plans in life though and I don't want my career to be my primary focus. I hate growing up!

I've changed some of my radio stations in my car! I'm back to listening to classic rock and puck rock and plain old rock + some cheesy classical music. I'm so in the mood for change! I'm currently obsessed with the Talking Heads' "Burning Down the House". I don't know what it talks about (should probably look up the lyrics) but I love the beat haha. Plus I love this rainy weather, it makes me a little happy.

I feel like I had so much more to say but I guess not. This is it! I really hope I dream something awesome soon ^_^

Rainy days in the woods! Reminds me of my almost perfect childhood in good ol' Mexico =D