Heart break :I

It's crazy how attached you can become to someone and then having that person leave forever. And you knew from the beginning it probably wasn't going to work out but you still went for it cause he needed you and you just wanted to be his friend. But then you let the feelings flow in. It's difficult. I have realized that life usually consists of waiting, forgetting, and remembering. Right now I'm doing all 3. It's not that bad, I think that what I like about myself is that I can get over things very quickly because I'm quite frivolous, you see, and I get distracted easily. And I have also known for a while that people come and go from your life and even if they have impacted you greatly, and even if they may be your closest friend today, they may be gone tomorrow. So I was prepared to let go. It sucks and it's rather depressing I guess but life goes on. And then there's this feeling of freedom and of happiness that you can be yourself again and you don't have to read minds again or wait for approval or impress or keep people happy because you're scared they'll go away. Or wondering when's the next time they'll text you or call you or what they're doing blah blah blah. I don't want to baby anyone. I'm so lucky that I have wonderful friends in my life and a great family. I don't know what I would do without them. I'm excited to have my life back and looking forward to the future but for now I need some time to myself!!! Count the blessings and not the failures. Happy May :)