Don't upset the balance!

The bad thing about feeling so good/happy is that you always fear of losing it all. It's this uncomfortable feeling in the back of your head that tells you that now that you have a little bit of everything good in life, you have everything to lose. Enjoy it while it lasts? The truth is that the balance of life will always end up disrupted. It will always be like the cliche of a roller coaster--ups and downs. Enjoy the "ups" but also enjoy the "downs" because it's from these that we grow =D for the time being, I'm very happy. Let's see how long it lasts! haha

I've been dreamless for a while now...

Last Week!

My week was pretty amazing. Every single minute of it. I had a lot of awesome dreams, but can't really remember any of them. Ready for bigger things in life!

Trying to decide.

I've been neglecting a lot of stuff lately. I've been very passive about my life in the last couple months. It's not like me...but it's been a weird year. Today for probably the first time in my life I've made a list of pros and cons to help me organize the clutter in my head. It kinda helped. These last couple days I've felt very indifferent about my surroundings.  My friend told me something very serious yesterday. She almost psychoanalyzed me. She might be right. And then today my mom told me something really serious too. People have been telling me important things lately. Should I do something? Change something? I'm being very vague but in real life I wouldn't actually tell anyone this. That's why I like writing :)

I've also thought about things that I dislike about myself. Here are some:

-I think I have a superiority complex
-I can be really obnoxious
-I have trouble talking to people about real stuff
-I think way too much
-I take a book everywhere with me. I think it bothers people
-I'm constantly fighting people on the way they think

It's not important stuff I guess. My favorite teacher, who passed away recently, always used to say that it is important to be able to look into a mirror and be happy with what you see. I think about that a lot. I wonder if people do this. When I look in a mirror I know who I'm looking at and I'm happy about my actions and who I've become. But I can also see who I am deep down inside. I've done some things in my past that don't necessary reflect who I am now. I also know that I have really "bad" tendencies or I guess I'm by nature a pretty mean person. But at least I try. And in the back of my head I always fear becoming like my father. My teacher was a great man, I miss him. People disappear. Anyway, even with all the seriousness in my life right now, the moment of the week that probably bothered me the most was the fact that a couple days ago, I accidently skipped an awesome song on Pandora instead of putting up the volume. Pathetic! haha. Oh and when my sister told me that I was both the smartest and the dumbest person she's ever known. The highlight of my week was probably...having a good day with my mom today. And my friend said something in a funny way yesterday that kinda made me happy. But I forgot what it was :P

Trees are great.

Dream time!

Friday night I had a creepy/scary dream... Saturday night I had an awesome dream! I was in some sort of small town, I think it was in New Orleans because everything was so frenchy. The village was tiny and overall picturesque. The strait streets were packed with crazy-looking characters...I think there was a mime on a unicycle blowing bubbles. And I was just walking along, staring at everyone as I went. As I reached the outskirts of the town, I could see that the town was in the middle of two huge mountains overlooking the ocean. It was like an island. I just stood over the bridge staring at the orange sun descending into the waters. It was amazing! I want to dream that again. Definitely compensated for the creepy dream the night before. 'Tis it :D

Wished I lived here.

In other news today was pretty chill. Went to ALL my classes! haha no more ditching...and then we had to go to Irvine to my professor's ad agency to present our creative briefs for the Wahoo's campaign! It was a bit of an improvisation for me but I came up with some ideas (right before presenting). It was thrilling. I'm thinking that if advertising doesn't work out, I can always do marketing. Good monday! This week should be great :)